Day 39  What if?

Today is a day of what ifs.  I think that sometimes the what ifs does get in the way of happiness and knowing who we are.  The fantasy involved in what ifs leads my mind to a place where I do not believe happiness can grow.  Today is one of those days.  I have thought of what if a lot today with relationships, choices and life experiences.  I think of one change in my life and how my son would not be living in the US.  I would not be working where I am today.  I would not have met my spouse and best friend.  I can go on.  At times, I have thought that the universe may have brought me to a certain place.  Then again, I may be fooling myself.  Today, I am trying to focus on the kindness that trusting and being with this belief can bring both to myself and others in my life.