Friday, November 30, 2018


What makes us better?  People who uplift us, love us, laugh with us and who we can uplift. 
I will also add a crabby old 15 year old mutt, who definitely uplifts me with his stares and sighs when the right spot is found on his back. 

Thursday, November 29, 2018

Day 143 what makes us better

What makes us better?  I don't know for sure.  I was thinking of how other people can challenge us causing multiple feelings including warmth, happiness, anger, and irritation.  Recently, I have been challenged or rather my views and beliefs have been challenged.  I don't know if I am being challenged or perhaps something not having to do specifically with me.  The more I think of letting go of the baggage of beliefs and what I hold dear, the happier I am.   Like luggage filled with stones, my thoughts can be like rocks as changing another's person viewpoints may be like trying to change stones into water. 

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Day 142 Luggage

When I leave work, I have a book bag with my computer and some magazines that I always intend to read.  I skim these at times and have use of a computer which is a life line to my ability to function.  I have talked to a wise person today about leaving baggage at the door.  Letting ideas, feelings, situations, insults, compliments go have been difficult for me at times.   As I have gone through my life, I have discovered the importance of letting go of what weights me down. 

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

Day 141 Giving

Today is giving Tuesday.  I don't remember hearing about this in the past.  I believe that I have been pretty oblivious to this in the past.  I have given today to the local animal shelter.  About 14 years ago, I had received the best gift; a dog from the animal shelter.  His name is Dexter, he is old and he is stubborn.  He usually lets me know when he wants to eat, be left alone or needs to go out.  He has been a constant and kind companion as he has put up with being picked up, pulled on from children and woken up from sleep.  I hope one day to be the person he thinks I am.  Until then, I will continue to try.

Monday, November 26, 2018


I think that sometimes trust and honesty can be two of the greatest gifts we can give each other.  Trust between ourselves and others including our communities are what we can build a home, life and future on.  Honesty to ourselves and each other can be difficult as at times one person's honesty is another person's lies.  Can we be honest without trust and vice versa?  I don't know.  At times, I believe that we can all do our best but fall short of our ideals.  What is most important, the trying or the outcome or maybe both? 

Sunday, November 25, 2018

Have and got

Today was a “got” day.   Spending time with family can be very enjoyable or not depending on the family.  I am lucky enough to have family members who can have fun discussing the proper use of got and have.  Something I still feel uncertain about but have fun “discussing”

Saturday, November 24, 2018

A log for a twig

I believe there is a Christian saying about removing the log from ones own eye prior to doing minor surgery on another.  I have trouble with this sometimes especially with a very untrustworthy soul.  In Buddhism it is important to form communities with those who we can learn from.  It may be difficult to learn from those fundamentally different in order to improve and grow.

Thursday, November 22, 2018

Happy thanksgiving

On thanksgiving, I am grateful and happy to be who I am and with those around me.  May all be as lucky.

Wednesday, November 21, 2018

137 the shoulds and should nots

It can be difficult to know when it’s better to run from or to situations.  I feel liking running away when the problem becomes too big or shouldish.  This happens more when people should or should not behave in a certain fashion.  In these times, I find it difficult to maneuver around or through.

Tuesday, November 20, 2018

Day 136 Steps

 Today was the day of a lot of thoughts. I have thought about life as well as the meaning behind her existence. I am down in my past with people who have had suicidal ideation as well as who have suffered greatly either emotionally, spiritually or physically. Dealing with these issues sometimes I believe it may be important to focus on the present as well as what makes somebody happy. Drawing, Writing, smiling, jokes, movies, anything at that time maybe more significant than what we can ever imagine.

Monday, November 19, 2018

Day 135 Finding ourselves in a bunch of life

I was thinking of a song today, "What if God was one of us".  I was exercising and heard it on the you tube site.  Anyway, what if that was true.  Further, what if there is a bit of God in all of us, in the air, in the water, in the dog whining to eat, in a co-worker yelling at us, in a family member with arms open...   I would find that comforting.  Again, the more I see the beauty in all, the happier I am.  Even when the dog is about ready to drive me up the wall. 

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Day 134. Thoughts

Today I have been thinking of someone who used to be in my life.  Due to strategic changes, they no longer are.  I have wondered if thinking of someone and wondering how they are doing works both ways.  Is there a connective force between all of us?  How do we know?  I wonder, but the most I think I can do is to send loving thoughts out to the universe wishing much happiness to this soul.  In the end, this is the best of myself that I can give.

Saturday, November 17, 2018

Day 133 Something from Nothing

Yesterday, I had watched the movie "Christopher Robin".   Pooh says in the movie, the best kind of something comes from doing nothing.  I have been thinking of this more and more.  Sometimes, I can get lost in the somethings but then out of nothing, I am surprised.  Maybe, the best comes from just being in the moment. 

Thursday, November 15, 2018

Day 132 Yellow Submarine

Today, I am living in a yellow submarine, a yellow submarine, a yellow submarine... 
Yes, I believe in the yellow submarine and the ability of perspective.  I think that the periscope pointed in the right direction, keeping a certain thought or perception on target,  can either be happiness or mind numbing.   Depending on perspective of course.  As I turn my periscope around, at times, I don't really like what I see, but I learn.  Sometimes, it sucks.  Then again, sometimes it doesn't.

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

Day 131 Expectations

I have expectations on how people should act, how the world should work and how we all should get along together.  Expectations are just what they are, nothing.  I expect but am let down.  I am unable to find happiness in expectations.  I am now trying to let these go.

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

Day 130 Perspectives

Life is full of perspectives.  Sometimes it can be draining if the perspectives drag down your own ideas.  Letting go of one's own perspectives can be helpful, in the right situations.  It is hard to know what is ok to let go and what is not.  Maybe this is what religion is about.

Monday, November 12, 2018

Day 129 Warmth

Today was cold.  Sometimes the chill can take on different connotations.  There's a chill in the air as in someone giving a cold shoulder.  There's a chill as in temperature type cold.   Either way, warmth is nice. 

Sunday, November 11, 2018

Day 128 Kindness

We all rely on the kindness of others as well as own selves.  Today, we had a scare in the family as one of our family members was hit by a car while on his way to a restaurant on his bike.  He was battered and bruised but no significant damages.  We were notified by neighbors who with kindness came to our house and notified us of the incident.  The older I become, the more I realize how important community is to our lives.  This sense of community is something I treasure more and more.  Kindness can start at home and radiate outwards.  It is our job to continue the chain. 

Saturday, November 10, 2018

Day 127 Employees

I was at a local grocery store today.  I don't know how the store treats their employees, but the people there are almost always smiling and happy.  They probably have to help the customers out of the store and always offer.  I decline due to arrogance as I am not that old yet.  It's coming though.  On leaving today, I mentioned to who I thought was a manager how the employees there are always smiling and kind.  She reacted very well to the compliment.  I do hope that it can help some of the people who work there.  In this day and age, I believe that the value of kindness is unlimited: precious and rare.

Friday, November 9, 2018

Day 126. Time

I do not know if this is a quote from another but “Life is too short be happy!”
It is hard to think of the next steps: reincarnation, heaven, damnation or void.  I am probably missing a few.  When I think of all not done, all missed and all those fleeting in my life, I wish time was a hopper: a device we can rewind.  Alas, we don’t have the luxury.  All the time spent in suffering though takes away a little at a time.  Turn back, smile and move on.

Thursday, November 8, 2018

Day 125 Cheating

I have cheated over the past few days.  I have been resetting. This can be a hard process as it is difficult to reset and give up on ego.  To let go is important and is difficult to point the finger inward.  Tao de Ching talks about being able to master the self on our goal for self awareness and happiness.

Sunday, November 4, 2018

Day 124 Catch up

If you want to change the world, go home and love your family-  Mother Theresa

I am playing catch up today with two blogs.  I have had a good weekend with time spent with my family including spouse, teenage son and dog.  Today, I also had the pleasure of walking with my mother.  What could be better?  When I was younger, I thought that happiness was in the work I did, in the people I could help.  Now, I understand the gift of family, togetherness, love and kindness that can be shared with those close to us.  I am lucky to have the people I do in my life. 

Day 123 Hookie

Yesterday, I decided to play hookie and took off time from the blog.  I remembered to do it early in the day as my son reminded me of it in the afternoon.  After a discussion on how I have been doing it for a while, over 4 months, I remember easily.  It is a habit now.  Last night, I was lying in bed and thought about getting up to blog.  Then I remembered spending time with my family, teaching my son about parallel parking and watching a silly movie on television.  I decided at that time to take time off to play hookie.  A day in which kindness was in the little things of family.

Friday, November 2, 2018

Day 122 Balance

As a child being on a see saw always caused me to feel afraid.  Just getting on it and trusting someone to be in control at the other end was a grand adventure.  Balance and working together always made sense.  Today, trying to apply this to work and home life is just as daunting. 

Thursday, November 1, 2018

Day 121 Truth

Everyone's truth is like beauty, it is in the eye of the beholder.  I guess it may be difficult to tell which truth is real and which isn't.  Maybe it is like being able to trust one's values and give up other people's expectations.   Maybe it is not.

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