Thursday, January 31, 2019


One of the most wonderful times in life is when I feel like I am at the most open and humble.  Getting there, however, is sometimes a difficult process.  Being around others with trust and honesty helps the opening of the soul.

Wednesday, January 30, 2019


I just heard in a movie that "everything begins with family".   I like this statement.  If we can take it a little further as who is are family or what is a family, I think we can all get along a little better. 

Monday, January 28, 2019


I am reading about silence in contemplative meditation.  What this means is that by stilling the mind, I can feel more myself.  When I was a teenager, I would take long walks to think over what I read and what I felt to be true in myself and in others.  I was big into reading the bible at that time.  I would think and reflect on what the words of Jesus may mean to me and my life.  These words would guide me to action.  Without having time and space, I do not know if I would have become who I am today. 

Sunday, January 27, 2019


At times, I believe we make life too difficult for ourselves and others.   Arrogance, pride, lust get in the way of making the right choices.  Being able to scale down concerns to what really is important to ourselves and others in the end may help light the way.

Saturday, January 26, 2019


I used to be a pretty devout Christian.  I did stray from the path as the hatred and anger which I saw in some who used the church gave me the bad vibes.  Reading now about the communion found in God which was written by a catholic monk gives me hope in a new church founded on love and kindness.  I believe that the major religions have this one common goal: community amongst all.

Wednesday, January 23, 2019


One of the happiest times in life is a birthday.  Another happy thing is singing to a friend who is having a birthday.  Today, I had the pleasure of singing to my friend.

Tuesday, January 22, 2019


As it goes, time becomes more valuable.  Seeing changes in loved ones as they age and worrying about the inevitable do not change the final outcome.  These changes do help me to become more aware of the limitations of human life as well as grant me an opportunity to cherish time spent with those I love.

Monday, January 21, 2019


If choices are the essence of hope, then I believe friendships are the essence of understanding, both ourselves and others.  People come in and out of our lives all the time.  Those who have been around for 30 years or more are priceless.  Kindness today is in recognizing that the work put into keeping these friendships going is well worth it and results in getting a lot in return. 

Thursday, January 17, 2019


I used to smile a lot.  I had one person ask me why I smiled so much.  I replied that I liked to be happy.  There are days in which I grumble more as I think too much.  Someone is trying to do something to me, someone is disrespecting me....  Being a blank slate with a smile does help me feel happier.  I think it helps to think more rationally to solve problems better.  With less "chit/chat" going on, my ability to focus improves.  Therefore, I try to smile on with the ins and outs of life.

Wednesday, January 16, 2019


Today I heard a quote from a wise man: “Choices are the essence of hope.”  Stan Bolton

Tuesday, January 15, 2019


Today,  I am trying to enjoy more by not overthinking and being in the moment.

Monday, January 14, 2019


I have finished book by Richard Rohr named Falling Upward.  I haven't heard a religious thinker/theologian speak of Jesus and God the way he does.  Somewhere in the middle is what I view what he has to say.  We are all in the middle, attempting to learn and grow.  As I get older, I still have those up and downs with growth and falling into humility.  They are not as up and not as down as before and mean even more to how I view myself and others.  I am wrong as I think more about it.  I am more at the end than in the middle of life.  As I go on, may I find solace in who I am and whom I love. 

Sunday, January 13, 2019


Listening to the morning news programs, I am struck by the term bipartianship as a dirty word discussed by one politician.  He was being a little "tongue and cheek" as us old people say.  The more we see the commonalities in life, the more we can work together in a community to build prosperity for all.  Maybe, integrating bipartianship into our life may help build understanding for ourselves as well. 

Friday, January 11, 2019

I got nothing

I got nothing...   this is after a long work week with numerous issues which arouse, dealing with suffering of people in different ways.   Sitting on couch, petting the dog is what it is all about; regrouping.

Thursday, January 10, 2019

How to Win

In conflicts, I never think that one person wins over another.  No one wins unless peace and understanding exists to bring the differences to an end.   In the past, I have believed this and at times I still think this.  Today, I have been thinking that in winning is to make peace within; to accept what is and leg go of what may not come to be.

Tuesday, January 8, 2019


One of the worst experiences in my life was high school.  I had trouble relating to people, feeling like an outsider, feeling like people including myself were judging me.  As I grow older, I remember that it gets better.  At times, I seem to transgress in places that are not the healthiest for me and my personality.  Getting to the civil and ok place is harder some days than others.  I have faith now though that like gets better, situations change and improve and out of hard times can come growth. 

Sunday, January 6, 2019

Tongue biting

Whenever I get tired, I tend to have to bite my tongue a lot.  I find it helps in relationships, especially family relationships.  It's hard though.  There are times I would like to say more but in the end fast forwarding shows a complete meltdown or s... show.  As I become more mature in my old age, I hope that I can still keep my tongue and prevent myself from biting it off.

Saturday, January 5, 2019


I am interested now in the Enneagram which is a different sort of personality test.  I come up higher in the helper category which isn't really a surprise as I am a nurse in trade for past 25 years.  I was reading up on the positives and negatives of the type, both have a multitude of both.  There were some saints who end up in this category.  I, however, am far from sainthood as I try to attain personhood or humanity on a daily basis.  I still continue to blog in effort to improve myself and selfishly become happier, a goal I have for myself and family.  My prayer today is that everyone is able to find and enjoy their own sainthood as we are all different in many ways and in others are all the same.

Thursday, January 3, 2019


After watching the Titan, which is a competition on network television regarding strength, I have a new appreciation for determination.  Seeing two women pull golden ton rod in a tug of war, I thought how glad it was not me.  The woman who one also supports her sister who has a physically handicap infant.  I just watched two men throw a battering ram into a giant sized door to win and move on.  The winner had discussed how he tries to be a role model for his child.  I don't know if there is a theme starting, but I wonder if part of strength and determination comes out of motivation to help family and others.

Wednesday, January 2, 2019


Direction is a tricky project.  At times, it leads us down the wrong road, and at other times it leads to prosperity.  Taking time to listen to ourselves and where we feel we can fit in is important first step. For those close to me and others not so close, I wish that the direction leads to satisfaction in life, as well as happiness. 

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

Happy New Year

The new year brings anticipation, resolutions, parties, football bowel games and other assortments of fun.  Today, I have been a party pooper as I told my son that this is just another day, a continuation of the day before and the day before the next.  Taking a break in order to think and reminisce on how the past year may be what the doctor ordered.  Looking forward, backward and present may help better to guide use into faith and a better life.

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